right between the eyes

If I have exisitng readers *laughs*, I'm at http://www.theboinq.blogspot.com now ;) Yeah, I'm back.

I bumped into an old friend a couple of days ago. Apparently my long hair, buddha belly and bootylicious bum caught her attention. Actually she said the way I talked, moved and laughed was different. And she isn't the first to say that.

Afiq said I'm not like the Sharina he knew a couple of years back. I have a tendency to be more serious nowadays I think. Can't help it. I'm turning 21 on the 30th.

And like the last year without a boyfriend. No wait. I had a boyfriend last year but he wasn't around. Not that it makes much difference.

HA. Bullshit. Of course it makes a difference.

This year, I'm spending it with a lot more friends and taking my mind of him. He still affects me without even knowing it. As usual. I either have to :
a) hook up with someone
b) turn lesbian
c) join a monestry
d) join the cirque du soleil
e) turn punk rocker again
f) get married.

Hm

;)

After a VERY long absence, I guess I should revive this blog. It's been dead long enough.

i look at pictures of couples on the internet and my heart tugs around for a bit.

i would give anything to be able to tap into their happiness. i want to feel that tenderness you feel in your heart when someone you love smiles at you. i long for that immense satisfaction you get after kissing your lover. i need that feeling you get when your lover wraps his arms around you and whispers stupid love nothings into your ears.

i want to see my lovers face close to mine and to his hands clapsing mine. i want to watch him fall asleep next to me and see that tiny smile on his lips as i plant last kiss before i doze off.

have you ever noticed that there are some pictures where a person looks so radiant, so pure and so HAPPY? you know instantly that the photographer is deeply in love with the subject.

crappy, i know. but those few moments, i love. which is why at times, i love falling in love with love.

heh.

ok now some bitching is in order,

i've relaxed the "add friends up" in Myspace. As a result, some idiotic malay guys think they can add me for no reason at all.

u think if i have many friend i look like haughty rite.....
it,s up to me if i want add friend by randomly......
i just wanna be your fren...
that,s all....





----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: sharina
Date: Feb 24, 2006 5:08 AM

is it my fault you can't read my profile? then why the heck are you on myspace? to just add people randomly and collect 12313456 people so that you can go around to your buddies and say "woot i've got so many friends".

you are so sad it's not even funny.

READ before adding people add up KID.

learn some online ethics.

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Dark
Date: Feb 24, 2006 9:05 PM

is it my fault if i add u?....
if my fault i,m sorry and plzz log out from add fren in my myspace ok....
u never doubt it.....




----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: sharina
Date: Feb 24, 2006 4:59 AM

who are you? do i know you? i doubt it. read my profile before randomly adding me up you dolt.


hehe. i think i've done that to about 5 guys already.

twats.

they can't read my profile eh? i've got a disclaimer up! hahahahahha.

i'm so mean but i don't care. if they can't read, it's their frickin problem.

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: aiyoo lah
Date: Feb 24, 2006 3:30 PM

why?u lesbian



----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: sharina
Date: Feb 23, 2006 11:29 PM

if i honestly wanted to be friends with a guy like you, don't you think i'd have added you earlier?

READ the profile first before you blindly add a person. you were taught how to read and ethics in school right?

not interested anyway.


----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: aiyoo lah
Date: Feb 24, 2006 3:27 PM

ino that...
just be friend k...not just kidding...



----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: sharina
Date: Feb 23, 2006 11:24 PM

my profile, you twat. honestly. read a persons profile before you randomly add them up. unless you would like to feel my wrath of course.


----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: aiyoo lah
Date: Feb 24, 2006 3:23 PM

read?what......................



----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: sharina
Date: Feb 23, 2006 11:21 PM

can you read?

that was even more idiotic.

i think myspace should have a filtering process before letting these idiots sign up. then there would be half the people on myspace. YAY!

i think everyone knows that i've failed 2 out of 4 papers. by 1 lousy mark.

1 MARK YOU LOUSY SCROOGE! WHY THE HELL DO YOU WANT ME FLUNK?

oh well. life goes on doesn't it?

it's suprising how i am now more adapt to the PM's rather the AM's. i used to be a morning person but now it's all screwed up. like most of the things in my life.

oh woe betide me. my life is so meaningless. it's like a black dead rose. only it stinks even more. ah my tears are of no use. no one understands me. oh whine whine whine.

i'm sick of that. whining. i feel like slapping each and every freaking teenager that comes my way now. it's ARGH, stop it already. but i suppose it's a phase. i went through it once.or twice. ok fine, my whole teenage-hood was filled with ridiculus whining.

i'll most probably start whining about my results tomorrow.

i'm really blessed to have friends like atie and pai who keep on saying that it will be alright. pai said if i quit ACCA, he'll disown me. hahahahah.

i'm chicken shit when it comes to results. my fingers tremble while i'm typing in my username and password. my heart skips a few beats when i see the sbuject title. my finger jerkily clicks on the mouse.

and then my whole life flashes in front of me.

wwwhhhooossssssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

and the results will slowly show themselves.'

i cannot take this!!! damnit.

i want comfort food.

the day started out pretty sucky. i had a disagreement with my dad. my mom did her back in. i was nearly late for work and was stuck doing lettershopping (which basically means, folding bits of paper,attaching them together and labelling etc etc. BORING. 3000 freaking pieces!).

but he suprised me.

he was late, but he still suprised me. it was so cheesy and corny yet romantic.

i don't advocate valentines, let that be known. but it was still nice nonetheless that he thought of something. and i felt so guilty for thinking that he'll most probably turn into a miser like me.

the world doesn't make sense when you're happily in love, so don't expect my words to do so either.

though it might be shortlived, i'll still enjoy whatever is left. there are however , some people who might not be in love at this very moment and believe me when i say,

you're missing out aaaahhhhahahahhahahahha. :p

it must suck to be single on valentines. i think i've never been single on valentines since i was 16. ngehehe.

sorry sorry. but i'm too delirously happy. so if you hate me for liking valentines, pbhhttttt!!!!!!